An Introduction.......of sorts.

Well let me start by saying that I'm absolutely scared to death of this blog I just created, and putting my thoughts out there.  I used to write, really well actually.  That was before kids, before marriage.  I think I felt judged and misunderstood by the one person who was supposed to know me best and never pass judgement on me......and that was the end of my writing.  I still have that last piece of writing, though it seems quite juvenile now.  But I was 19 then, and I'm 13 years older (and wiser???) now. Oh how my world felt complicated back then.  See I was a mother and a wife both at 19.  Hahaha.......I'd love to be able to go back and tell my 19 year old self that those were the easy and "carefree" days.  Ok, not really carefree.  There's certainly a lot of problems that go along with having a baby and getting married at 19.  Shocking, I know.  On that note, I should warn that I have a sarcasm level higher than anyone else I will EVER know.  Annnywaaays......I married a wonderful man.  We met in high school.  Totally in love.  No, for real......I love this man.  He works hard.  At times during our marriage hes had two jobs, plus done things on the side for cash.  No, not those kinds of things......the legal kind.  Trimming or cutting down trees, until he fell 30 feet out of one and shattered and dislocated (imagine that, hmm) his foot.  He's a wonderful, and patient father.  Not so helpful around the house....but hey, what husband is?  And the bottom line, most important of all, he truly adores ME!  Wow!  So marriage should be easy peasy right??  Ehhhh......ok, I don't think I know a single married person who would say marriage is easy.  Its not.  It takes a lot of work, and the perfect combination of a whole lot of factors (trust, honesty, cooperation, consideration, blah blah blah.)  I'll say it again, I really do love this man.  He is my best friend.  I'd like to say he knows me better than anyone, but alas, that is not really the case.  He is everything the 19 year old me needed for a lifetime of happiness.  He knows me as well as I've allowed him to know me.  Then there is the other one......The inspiration, so to say, for this blog.  The one, that was meant for me.